the moon lives in the lining of your skin

A proper catalogue

At first I dreaded this job, am helping my mum’s friend out at her student care centre within a school, hoping to be pointed in the right direction. Feel that maybe this is what I want to do, with older kids.

Working with primary school children is more than demanding, but also highly rewarding. Have learnt so much. The other guardians are staunch Christians, this is timely. She said “nothing happens by accident”. Timely reassurance. Perhaps I have figured out what I want to do. Whenever I see a child that is different or difficult I feel compelled to make a difference, because my own teachers have been nothing short of amazing

A primary 2 kid gave me a Christmas present, so sweet. He meant it to be a surprise but his classmate told on him. A conversation with him yesterday — me: did he give you anything for Christmas! / him: yes! He gave me friendship! / so sweet :’)

And then there’s Dwayne, so defiant, but I think I won him over during frisbee. He was on my team and we scored because he caught my throws. “high-5 dwayne!” and also “we play tomorrow okay?” “okay la okay la” haha. So cute. Eres is getting better, I love his name

And then there’s Lachlan, soccer star amongst his friends, young jock. Daclan, his younger brother with two missing front teeth. Moves with the frisbee. Their eyes: dark, not telling.

Was I like this when I was younger? Reminds me of so many things, reminiscence. Because it is a student care guided by Christian principles, sometimes they sing songs of praise (there is a boy named Hymn, and he sings his full name in a melody) but I don’t dare to let my guard down because it’s easy for me to cry at anything these days. So unworthy, yet He is faithful.

There is a voice i can hear from the back of my skull, echoing down my spine: keep the faith because what else can you hold on to?

Dinner with Sara after work, was nice just talking, realizing how alike we are. Same birthdays, same o level score, same perspectives towards certain things. This week I have been kept busy, feels nice knowing that you’ve been doing something healthy for your soul the whole day.

Sorry for these long posts recently, I have been in constant introspection. Funny thing is I have less time now for my mind to stray but whenever I think about things I am more decisive.

I should sleep. Chalet tomorrow for 4 days/3 nights! Contemplating complete detachment from social media (via bb Internet/twitter) but get real Lycia. Should be nice catching up with everyone. I am thankful.

P.s. Is it anti-social to read in a chalet? Maybe at night. I haven’t been reading much and that makes me feel very intellectually stagnant

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