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Anonymous asked: I'm waiting for my A's too. Looking calm and all but actually worried sick and anxious, really.. And relatives telling me "no pressure, just try to score" but what I hear is the words they don't say. My family's depending on me, probably cause so far I'm the only one who went the JC route. I just.. Idk Lycia. I don't want to think so much.
hey anon, thanks for this message, so timely. it has been on my mind the entire day (read this via my bb) and now this is gonna be a long one, mostly me rambling, so bear with me
FIRSTLY i’m going to tell you that nothing i say will help you stop worrying. and more likely than not your anxiety will come back. but i’m going to answer this earnestly to let you know that you really aren’t alone.
i don’t know if i should tell you to stop worrying, because i know how impossible it is. besides, i don’t want to preach what i don’t practice. so what i’m going to tell you is to take each day as it comes, live life as it is. i know you don’t want to think so much, and honestly by simply admitting that you’ll only think more about it. its always reflex. try spending your time doing other things, devoting your attention to other things, give yourself a break. if you still can’t stop worrying then nothing i say will help really :( but always focus on the good! sometimes expectations are indicative of your ability. if your family expects quality grades, then i’m sure you’re capable of them.
for what its worth, i can completely relate to your entire message. but honestly anon, this is how it is like for me: i’m the one who expects the most out of myself. perhaps its the same for you. of course people are going to expect you to do well, especially if you’ve been a good student. i guess like, part of the reason why you’re worried sick is beause you really want to prove yourself. that’s how it is for me. my grades are pretty consistent, and my prelims were good in terms of percentile, which is precisely why i feel like if i don’t do well for A’s i’m going to let myself down. and i already feel like i let myself down, because after every paper i felt that i didn’t do myself justice. A levels were horrible for me; of course purely by my own standards. but anon, remember that there are always people who deserve straight As but don’t get them. i remember a friend telling me that grades should never be indicative of your ability as a person. always remember that.
i don’t know your religion (i’m sorry if you’re an atheist, i promise i’m not trying to impose my own belief onto you) but if you believe in a God, then i can tell you for sure that you will get what you’re supposed to. and you will end up where you should be. take heart in that. if your grades aren’t what you desire, its going to be hard for a while, but wherever you end up, just give it all you have. and then you’ll find your silver lining! but of course; who’s to say you won’t get what you want in the first place! just keep your faith. be still, and know that He is God.
don’t be too hard on yourself anon. if you can honestly say that you did your best, then i guess that’s the most your family can ask for. keep faith, i’m sure you’ll be ok in the end! :) i hope this helps, i really do.
p.s. i have a gut feeling about who you are. you sound really like someone i know, from my primary school. of course i may be wrong. if you want, just talk to me and we can rant about how cambridge was a bitch last year, if that makes you feel better x
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“I can never read all the books I want; I can never be all the people I want and live all the lives I want. I can never train myself in all the skills I want. And why do I want? I want to live and feel all the shades, tones and variations of mental and physical experience possible in life. And I am horribly limited.”
― Sylvia Plath
