I run like the ocean to reach your shore

Please don’t dissipate
Yeah I know that I have got it so wrong

I’m reaching out
To touch your voice
But baby I’m clutching at straws

Even though
Your words hurt the most
I still want to hear them everyday

You say let it go
But I can’t let it go
I want to believe every word that you say

For I’m so scared of losing you
And I don’t know what I can do about it
About it
So tell me how long love before you go
And leave me here on my own
I know it
I don’t want to know who I am without you

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The Queen breaking into laughter as She passes Her husband, the Duke of Edinburgh, standind outside the Buckingham Palace, 2005


The Queen breaking into laughter as She passes Her husband, the Duke of Edinburgh, standind outside the Buckingham Palace, 2005

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from emma’s blog, 

love this

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am increasingly realising that when God breaks, He really really crushes you because your own heart leads you astray. been so caught up with matters of the world, of the selfish heart, that i have lost sight of God’s realness in my life. i guess in many ways, when jon spoke to me on sunday i kind of already knew what to say. have obviously disregarded the bigger picture — to serve, to follow, and then to lead. learning to say yes to God in humble submission.

i’m just trying to be as honest as possible - with myself, with my friends and most of all with God. as long as i’m clear about that, then what anyone else says shouldn’t shake me hard enough to second-guess myself. I’M OK!!!!

… and so He really does break us - and we break, not at His hand, but in His arms. this feels strange. but wow. for the first time in weeks, i feel so, so, liberated.

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"Let me tell you what I do know: I am more than one thing, and not all of those things are good. The truth is complicated. It’s two-toned, multi-vocal, bittersweet. I used to think that if I dug deep enough to discover something sad and ugly, I’d know it was something true. Now I’m trying to dig deeper. I didn’t want to write these pages until there were no hard feelings, no sharp ones. I do not have that luxury. I am sad and angry and I want everyone to be alive again. I want more landmarks, less landmines. I want to be grateful but I’m having a hard time with it."
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"Experience is a brutal teacher, but you learn. My god, do you learn."
— C. S. Lewis (via breakandheal)

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its really easy to say, be kind to yourself 

but i think the real challenge is actually getting yourself to believe that you deserve kindness - even your own - at all.

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"Here’s something I know: over the course of my life I’m going to lose people I care about. People who really matter to me are going to die before I do, or we’re going to lose touch due to the force or circumstances, or we’ll drift apart for reasons we can’t explain, or — insert reasons here. Some of these situations will be preventable and some will not, but a certain amount of loss is part and parcel of being a human being who establishes meaningful ties to other human beings. Going off to live in a cave by myself is not really an option, so I have no choice but to accept loss.

When I was nineteen, after a year that was not exactly a walk in the park, I learned something important — or rather, I decided something important. I decided that never again would I be the cause of irreparable damage to a healthy relationship with someone who mattered to me. If there was anything I could do to make things better, I’d at least always try. This wouldn’t, I knew, shield me from experiencing loss ever again, but it would at least make sure I wasn’t the cause of it, and that alone would help me sleep at night.

Sometimes it seems to me that the whole world wants us to learn lessons about “having pride” and “being dignified”. We’re told it’s an ugly and pathetic thing (especially if you’re a girl or woman, but that’s a story for another time) to be viewed as the person who cares the most, as the person who’s willing to put in the effort when the other party is not, as the person who always reaches out. If we’re rejected, we’re not supposed to go “Okay. I care as much as I always have, but I respect your choice”. We’re supposed to inflict some damage, to reject back, to tell the other person we never really wanted them in the first place. Or better yet, we’re supposed to reject pre-emptively as the best way to avoid any sort of blemish. That’s how you win — only this is not a sort of victory I particularly crave. The above is the all-out asshole version of this supposedly valuable life lesson, but there are other, gentler forms that still amount to “be stingy with your love”. We’re supposed to have enough “self-respect” to stop caring about people who fail to make us feel 100% secure in our need to be cared for in return — only who feels secure all the time, and where do you draw the line?

It’s hard, so hard, to be the sort of person who always allows themselves to be vulnerable. It takes a kind of strength I don’t always have to be relentlessly open-hearted and giving and patient and ever-welcoming in the face of all the uncertainties that are part of interpersonal relationships. It takes bone-deep generosity to tell people, not only in words but in deeds, that you always want them to come find you whenever life allows it. I don’t suppose anyone manages not to retreat from a position of such openness 100% of the time, but even 40% is still better than zero. I learned a decade ago that I don’t ever want to be miserly with my affection just because I’m afraid, but hey, learning is a process, and to this day I still try and often fail to live up to this decision. It’s a struggle, and it just might be the greatest and most important struggle of my life.

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this imperviousness is unsettling. but necessary. how long more, God? i desperately want to write this all down, this that is in excess; second-guessing, self-doubt, self-reproach, this guilt is a haunting, a perpetual presence that follows the apologetic shuffling of my two feet, a shadow, a ghost, this that makes itself known every moment - from the time i wake up for breakfast, to the time i tuck myself into bed, the moments in between, and even my dreams are impregnated with this weight, a burden that i cannot put to words because i don’t know what it is - 

ridiculous first world problems. you are small, stupid. so shrink.

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