— a link which surfaced on my fb newsfeed
have been reading tons of travel stories lately, about people who dedicate their entire life (savings) to travel, to go somewhere else, to learn the ways of life in another country. pretty amazing. also, it struck me that most of the people i read about travel solo; i think it’s the fact that solo travellers have a very specific idea of travel, their priorities are different from people who travel for touristy reasons, to try local cuisine, etc. also, solo travellers travel on a budget because every cent saved is another cent for a plane ticket elsewhere. i guess not many people understand or appreciate this way of travelling, which is why it’s always easier to go alone.
have been having conversations about travel too, with cheryl who is awaiting her 6 week-long europe grad trip, with jun who is in sri lanka right now. with siying who’s in NYC, who says that maybe we love travel precisely because we get to do the things we love while travelling - writing, introspection, having serendipitous encounters with strangers, etc. travel enables all that. that made sense.
if i could boil my love for travel down to one reason, i think i really just enjoy being lost in a brand new place. waking up somewhere foreign is truly a privilege. i love being reminded that the world is bigger than i can ever imagine it to be, and that somewhere out there is another way of life so different from my own. the vastness of the world also points to the greatness of God, and i am always humbled by how the God of the universe is personally invested in my puny human life.
as for now, i am dreaming of the mountains (soon! hopefully my stamina doesn’t fail me) while trying to finish this Lacan essay. the world really is bigger than all of this. that said, we’re this close to the end of april! soon enough i’ll be on a plane, alone and wandering again.
really blessed to be able to go to Nepal this May, much to the anxiety of my poor parents, but
for the days when getting lost in a new place is but a perpetual daydream, for when i am tired and restless and have no way out:
The right people, the right activities, the right experiences are right there in front of us at all times, no matter where we may be or what we may be doing, and with the proper attitude, we can take advantage of them all.
took the words right out of my mouth.
there’s something to learn from every single interaction/conversation (virtual or real life) and every single experience. everything is what you make it out to be - i must remember this!
— a c. s. lewis quote from yesterday’s conversation.
we spoke about this in the context of frisbee but i think this really holds true for everything — friendships, serving God in church, school work etc. a prayer for my heart to be in the right place! sometimes i forget that God really is interested in every aspect of my life, and that there is nothing I face alone. indeed, He shows up even in the conversations i have with friends. may everything i do be a pleasing offering to The Lord.
Please don’t dissipate
Yeah I know that I have got it so wrong
I’m reaching out
To touch your voice
But baby I’m clutching at straws
Your words hurt the most
I still want to hear them everyday
You say let it go
But I can’t let it go
I want to believe every word that you say
For I’m so scared of losing you
And I don’t know what I can do about it
So tell me how long love before you go
And leave me here on my own
I know it
I don’t want to know who I am without you
The Queen breaking into laughter as She passes Her husband, the Duke of Edinburgh, standind outside the Buckingham Palace, 2005
from emma’s blog,
am increasingly realising that when God breaks, He really really crushes you because your own heart leads you astray. been so caught up with matters of the world, of the selfish heart, that i have lost sight of God’s realness in my life. i guess in many ways, when jon spoke to me on sunday i kind of already knew what to say. have obviously disregarded the bigger picture — to serve, to follow, and then to lead. learning to say yes to God in humble submission.
i’m just trying to be as honest as possible - with myself, with my friends and most of all with God. as long as i’m clear about that, then what anyone else says shouldn’t shake me hard enough to second-guess myself. I’M OK!!!!
… and so He really does break us - and we break, not at His hand, but in His arms. this feels strange. but wow. for the first time in weeks, i feel so, so, liberated.