Psalm 37:4 Take delight in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart.
I’ve been misreading this verse. It’s not that God will give you what you desire if you take delight in Him. I’m increasingly realising that, if you remain in His will, then your heart’s desires will be what He desires. In other words, He will plant the right desires in my heart. What a stark difference. The former is selfish, the latter is God-centred. And I guess for now that’s my prayer: that God will align my heart with His own, and make me right again. This week I have come to terms with how broken I am, and that just makes me feel like I need God to be in the centre of my life to make me whole again. In front of the one who knows truly how broken and messed up I am, I am so small. And yet He loves me enough to make me right again. God is more interested in my character than my comfort. Right now, maybe the point is waiting on Him and learning complete submission. Break me down, then build me up.
Here’s Lemuel’s article, which I really enjoyed reading.
The Holy Spirit’s voice is like that flickering light bulb — it gently calls me to action, demands some effort and inconvenience, yet when I ignore it long enough, I stop noticing the bursts of light, and eventually I get used to a life without it.
Let us hold strong to the confession of our hope, never wavering, since the One who promised it to us is faithful. - Hebrews 10:23
Dad’s palm lines looking like rivers that stretch into my own. Today my mum told me that they were thinking of going to church. My dad said, ‘but I want to do it wholeheartedly.’ Holding steadfast to a hope that will not waiver. In His time.
Christ says, “Give me All. I don’t want so much of your time and so much of your money and so much of your work: I want You. I have not come to torment your natural self, but to kill it. No half-measures are any good…Hand over the whole natural self, all the desires which you think innocent as well as the ones you think wicked—the whole outfit. I will give you a new self instead. In fact, I will give you Myself: my own will shall become yours. - C. S. Lewis